This is a site created for my love on our first Valentine's Day as a couple. We cannot be together. She is very far away. I still have many things I want to give her. Do for her. Say to her. I can express myself in the only ways I know how. I don't have much in life, even though I've been given everything. But I have her, and that is what matters. When you have something like that. Special, you do what you can not to let go of it. I will continue to devote myself to her. Give, give give give.
I've collected some things here. Things I've worked on. For you. About you, us. Some music, writing, pictures, drawings. Everything I care about. I think is cool. I had to show you. Doing things like this is fun. It makes me feel like everything I've ever learned mattered. It mattered because I was able to show it to you one day. I was able to express myself in a way that felt genuine. That someone would appreciate the things I liked. Took the time to learn about me and enjoy what I had to show. Who I am.
What a woman she is. She's brought into me a warm light. Warm. So warm. I can't be cold. I can't remember what it feels like. I have her. She makes me forget. I was so cold. She saw me. She's throwin herself into my life. My cold, crude, disgusting, and small life. So bright, beautiful, capable, talented, brilliant, special. Golden hair soft to the touch, a perfect smile, slender frame, tender eyes, safe, inviting, welcoming, home. She asks me about my dreams, she tells me that I can do it. I can do it, I can. She tells me I can reach what it is I dream of. My end goal. The pinnacle of my life. If everything in the world were to work out as we intended. What we seek, what makes us whole. What makes us real. Feel human. Alive. Happy, sad, angry, jealous, hurt. What makes us comfortable, what makes us laugh, cry, retreat. To brave, to hide, to speak. Learn, understand, grow, endure and everything else that ever existed. Well, I dream of her.
This site doesn't really make sense. It can come across as many things. But it's me, and it's for you. It's one form of expression of my many forms of expression. It's my most vulnerable and expressive self, all laid out for the sole sake of sharing myself with the one I love, which is you Priya. I hope you find it interesting, enjoyable, special, visceral, and cool.
